Noticing

For most of my adult life, I was too busy. I needed to get there so I could get back. I wanted to finish this project so I could start the next one. I rushed home from work, picked up the kids, drove through McDonalds, dropped one kid off at her game, drove the other one to his, watched the beginning of his game, then rushed to watch the end of hers. I lived on Diet Coke and exhaustion.

For the past ten years, my life has slowed. I have fewer obligations and a calendar with lots of free space. I set my own schedule, and I have the freedom to do as I please. The biggest change is my noticing. I finally have time to notice things without worrying that I’m wasting time.

Recently, I noticed a sunset that was nothing short of breathtaking. I first noticed it through a window. My friend suggested we go outside to get a better look. The entire sky was a kaleidoscope of color that kept changing from one vibrant hue to another. For at least twenty minutes, the sky was on fire. Had I stayed in the house, I would have missed 99% of this magnificence. Note to self: Be willing to step outside your house (or your pre-conceived thoughts) and look at the big picture. You may never know what you’re missing.

The other day, I was driving to a very special place. I noticed a car in the other lane and I was pretty sure it was going to the same special place. However, they turned left when I turned right. A few minutes later, I noticed it had arrived from a different direction. Note to self: There’s more than one way to go, do, see. Be open to all the possibilities.

And last week I noticed a shooting star. It was a brilliant spectacle that only lasted a few seconds. The friend I was with missed it; I will never forget it. Note to self: Sometimes the moment is the miracle.

Overall, I’ve noticed my lack of hurriedness. I still make a “to do list” but it’s really so I don’t forget something, not to impose guilt if I don’t get everything crossed off by the end of the day. I’ve also noticed I’m as likely to say “No” as to say “Yes” to a request. I’ve even pared down my obligations to give me more time to do absolutely nothing…can you imagine?